I've thought about this the last 2 years, but not really committed. I have a goal for this coming year, but I don't know how to condense it into one word. Maybe ya'll can help. Let me summarize the best I can. I belong to a service group that travels and does projects out of state. I've really been pondering talks I've heard lately about looking around you and serving those around you first before extending that reach else where. In a way I'm not feeling fulfilled in the moment by serving with this group and feel I'm being pulled in a different direction. In a way it makes me feel guilty, because some of these people have taught me so much and I've made so many friends and respect these women, but I want to direct that energy to my community locally.
I've not been working the last two years by choice and it's taking a tole financially. Nothing huge, but we have some small debt I'd like to pay off this coming year and I'd like to feel a little more comfortable each month. I'm not sure I want to work full time, but I definitely want to work more than I have. Again, I feel I'm being pulled to focus on things closer to home and less travel by myself would help accomplish this too.
I've also gotten away from one of the things that makes me the happiest and that's scrapbooking. I'm trying new projects like quilting, but I'm not sure if it's for the right reasons.
I think it all comes down to being home, focusing on my family and those around me and being honest with myself about what makes me happy and fulfilled. Somethings missing and if I look a the factors in my life, many of the things that made me really happy are being put aside...this group included.
So that's my story and I'm sticking to it. It's alot of words, it's late and hopefully someone can make sense of what I'm trying to say..lol