I can empathize with how you're feeling, though my reasons for feeling that way several years ago were from a different cause (loss of a spouse). What I can offer is this --
breathe ... just remember that when you are feeling flustered, stressed, overwhelmed, just stop and
breathe. Regardless of what we do to prepare our home for the holidays, there will always be things we wished we'd done differently, things that become stressful, opportunities we feel were missed. In the long run,
it doesn't matter one bit. What matters is that we surround ourselves with the ones we love, and cherish those times, creating memories of a meaningful Christmas.
I'd suggest that you gather the family around and have a heart to heart talk about the holidays, how you can't do as much as you have in the past, due to your injuries, and let your family know that you really, really need their help this year. As strange as it may seem, family can be dense when it comes to things like this. They don't automatically notice that we need help until we (figuratively) knock them upside the head with a brick while yelling "hey you, yes you ... lend me a hand, please????" I commented to my DD a couple of years ago (during a rough patch), "guys can be dumb as a box of rocks, and they are
not mind readers. You have to spell it out for them like a 2nd grader, or they won't have a clue. They will look over that glob of toothpaste in the sink for 2 weeks, unless you personally point it out and tell them to wipe it off. Unless you say something, they aren't going to absorb it via osmosis."
If you have kids at home, perhaps
- task them with two hours each weekend getting their rooms straightened, dusted, and vacuumed. If age appropriate, sheets changed, beds made, and laundry to the washer. Anything they do is better than nothing, and it's better than you having to stress over it. You can always shut their doors and no one will be the wiser.
- have them bring all laundry to the laundry room by a certain day and time, sorting by clothing type or color, so it's one less thing you need to do. My mom had a rule that, if your clothes weren't there by Friday AM, before we left for school, it wasn't getting done -- including our work uniforms needed for the weekend. And, any change or tip money left in our pockets, went into the "Mom's tips" jar and was not returned. I lost $57 in hard earned tips one time and never again -- 40+ years later, and I still remember that dollar figure. My sisters each lost that much, if not more. We all learned a valuable lesson that summer.
- prepare a task list each week for the Room of the Week + a room you've missed. Ask each to tackle an item or two from that list. That's a task you don't have to do. Perhaps attach a reward for large chores that take more effort or something that could be done by teamwork -- maybe something like "good for 1 dozen cookies, all to yourself" or "good for your choice for dinner on Friday night." If they always want tacos or pizza, let them work for it.
- keep a weekly chore chart to get a little assistance with maintenance tasks.
If it's just you and your spouse, have a frank talk about what his expectations are and what your capability is right now, while you're still recovering. What tasks are absolutely a must? What can he pick up from the absolutely must-be-done list? How can you accomplish the remainder, given your limitations? Can you bring a cleaning lady in, just for now, to help with deep cleaning? Maybe once or twice a month until Christmas or until you're back 100%? Maybe he could cover it and let that be your Christmas gift?
Know that, for this one year, if your home only gets a surface cleaning, so be it. Seriously, if you're hosting a gathering, what are the chances someone's going to "white glove test" the inside of your cabinets or check that your towels are all folded and neatly stacked inside the linen closet? If they do, and especially if they make a rude comment, be sure to reciprocate next time you're at their place [wink wink]. My place went 5 years before I had the energy to wipe down the baseboards. I don't think anyone ever noticed. If they'd said anything, my response would have been,
"and yours are ????" (read:
"Don't go there! Payback's a B!%@#!!!!")
But mostly, just
breathe ... it's all good. You are here, alive, to celebrate the holiday with your family. That's the real gift! Huge hugs!