I am finding that in some ways I am living my word w/o thining about it. The girl I used to work w/ (who's job I now have) I realize can be very negative. She is often frustrated w/ things and work annoys her. I still enjoy her company but have decided that we can complain about work but I am not going to allow her jaded feelings for some of our supervisors (and she has valid points for how they are w/ her so I can not tkae that from her) BUt I will not allow them to affect my thoughts. I am learning to laugh at things that would usually annoy me. For example my supervisor/boss came up to me to work w/ us one night and she had to ask questions about doing my job. She should know how to do this b/c she evaluates me and my team. I could choose to be annoyed or irritated, I had the right to in some way, but instead I found the humor in that. Or when my Grandmother commented that she could tell I lost weight and said "you are not even trying are you" Uumm I have been working hard at this and if I didn't have to try I would not have gotten to my current weight. But instead I laughed and said, I have been working hard at it.
Then the other day DH was out of town. I choose to take the boys to the amusement park on my own. I spent time w/ DS6 in the kiddie area while the othe 2 rode stuff. I could have goten frustrated that I had to sit in kiddy land or tried to get DS to go some where else but I just sat and relaxed and let him do his thing, what ever it was that he wanted. It was nice, I felt good, relaxed and I think the boys were in response to me.